I who is considered existentialist

Going back to my authentic being with faith and reason in previous experiences, I may include me as an existentialist or pragmatist for which myself had a devious way to harmonize two entities, because my so-called faith is faith from my parent’s faith as traditional belief. For long time, I thought human mental life can effectively comprise a constant interplay between volitions and beliefs. The reason why I devote my efforts to do it is that I wouldn’t want to be duped by blind faith. I gave myself a wide space that there is doubt in faith, which can be tested through human acting intellectual faculties effectively. Consequently, the wide gap between two has becoming serious situation, somehow I led to trap by my limited capacity from both sides, and suddenly I had no doubt to believe the authentic truth must be existed, only the one who is independent being. Slowly and slowly, I was convinced to be a true believer by myself. Pope Benedict 16th said “faith and reason are two wings on which human spirit rises to the contemplation of truth…” I am experiencing this potential mutual approach although there is no absolute verificational sense to ensure God’s existence and value, but faith would at least provide moral motivations and self-understanding as pope articulate in the beginning. The encyclical letter re-inject the synergy both faith and reason, truth can be revealed by human intellectual activities.